I’ve felt dirty ever since I became clean
I wanna scream
I wanna shed my skin
Break off my ribs
Pull out my veins and tear them off
I’ve been sick my whole time here
Tell me, darling
Am I ever gonna heal?
Tie me to my bed
Maybe I’ll finally get some rest
Be able to switch off my goddamned mind
Focus on what’s here and now
Force food down my throat
Till I’m full, can’t form a word
Beat me and kick me till I’m scrambling on the floor
Void of every feeling, every thought
Make me beg and make me hope
That it’s finally gone away
Give me your hand and pull me up
So you can watch me fall again